George Herbert Poem {Lent}

The Sinner Lord, how I am all ague, when I seek What I have treasur'd in my memory!  Since, if my soul make even with the week,  Each seventh note by right is due to thee. I find there quarries of pil'd vanities,  But shreds of holiness, that dare not venture To show their face, since cross to thy decrees:  There the circumference earth is, heav'n the centre. In so much dregs the quintessence is small:  The spirit and good extract of my heart Comes to about the many hundredth part. Yet Lord restore thine image, hear my call:  And though my hard heart scarce to thee can groan,  Remember that thou once didst write in stone.  ~George Herbert

Special thanks to Lent and Beyond for posting this poem the other day.

My French Press Life {Lent}

Everybody loves a good cup of coffee right?  Except when what they want is a clear, fresh glass of water...

Sometimes my life is like this french press.  There are bits and pieces of coffee floating around in the hot water - you know...my junk, my sin.  In order to avoid drinking these, I slowly, with my own effort, push the plunger down.  It catches all those unappetizing granules and traps them deep, deep below.  

I am pleased with myself; proud of my effort to get rid of these visible particles.  After all, I have tamed and managed them through my own effort.  I smile.  (Actually it is more of a slightly arrogant grin.)

But then Jesus looks at me, holds out His cup and says, "Give me a glass of water."

My brow furrows and I feel sick to my stomach.  All I have to offer is a stained, black liquid.  And no amount of my effort can push the brown away.

I look at Jesus holding my pot of brown - the parfait of squished junk at the bottom and a sloshy brown liquid above.  I sheepishly shrug my shoulders, hang my head and whisper...

"Jesus, if You are willing, You can make me clean."

Then I look up to find Him smiling as He says, "Now you get it."

What To Give Up? {Lent}

What will your Lenten journey entail this year?  What are you giving up for Lent?

I asked God what He wanted me to give up.  And His answer?

Sleep - get up early for time set apart to meet with Him

and

Self-absorption - evidently this will be the primary topic of our conversations!!

Beware of mirrors

They lead us not to see ourselves

But love ourselves

Like poor Narcissus,

Who, grasping at his image died.

They say that floating in the

Water just above his

Wide-eyed, silent face

There was a butterfly.

Had he let it lead him into wonder,

He might have loved science, not himself,

And lived to cure the world of plague.

-Calvin Miller

(Requiem for Love)

Lent 2012 {Lent}

I found myself standing on a stage, in a dark room with one, single, bright, blinding light shining on me.  I tried to shield my eyes from the searing light in order to see who was behind it, but of course, I knew.  The words of Psalm 51 illumined so brightly - fueled by the Author's power.  The light was not war, but pure, crisp, almost a tangible wall and the Holder of the spotlight was unrelenting.  I stood here, at my entrance to Lent and the discomfort was unbearable.

I come from a stream of Christianity that does not observe Lent and this year I understand that much clearer.  Lent is exposure; Lent is discomfort; Lent is the caught child looking down at her shoes nervously twisting her ankles, rolling back and forth from tow to heel.  Lent - with its searing "caught you" light - forces that same child to turn her pockets out, exposing the junk she wishes could remain hidden.

In short, Lent exposes sin front and center....and leaves it there for a full 40 days.

There are no Hallmark cards for Lent.  It is not a holy day that the rest of the world wants to co-opt.  In my tradition, we believe we are sinners, but we like to move quickly to God's love and grace and much more pleasant sentiments.  But I've come to believe that Lent is exactly for those same believers...who having grown lazy have begun to drift slowly away from our First Love.

But Lent is all grace and love of God because it exposes our fractional living.  We live half-this and a quarter-that - mixing concoctions that work for us.  Lent turns our graduated cups upside down and empties us....in order to lead us to Wholeness.

But wholeness does not come easy.  It takes us being willing to remain on the dark stage in the light of Divine Interrogation for 40 days.  We must not our head "yes" to the convicting words of the great Lenten Psalm 51..."Thou art justified when You speak", and "You desire truth in the inmost being".  

It means being emptied, pockets shaken out, nowhere to hide and remaining in the raging love of God.

O Lord, give us the courage and stamina to make this journey!